Went shopping after lunch with Charmaine, Charmian and Dave.. lol it was really fun and think about it.. so cool two Chars and a Dave.. oo and i saw a lot of stuff I wanted to buy.. but but.. haiz no money.. so much for getting $400+ a month.. nvm IN JESUS NAME I AM RICH.. already over spending like siao..

Next time must ask Shawn to bring me out for a make over for Uni.. haha yeah Shawn's got good taste for clothes and I seriously know nuts about style; girl or guys.. aww man.. nvm Jesus u give me my own style (:

Actually she commented about my unwillingness to step into a women's boutique.. it got me thinking.. 'cos I used to step in often last time till my SAJC friends started teasing me about it.. guess I lost my interest in clothes, fashion and shoes then.. oh well.. why did I conform to my friends view of me when I could have happily lived life the way I wanted it? yeah.. I thank God the fear of men has left me 'cos I've got Jesus to have a good opinion of me always and tt's really the most important..

so well shopping for 3 whole hours.. wow my feet ache now haha.. guess I'm not cut out for long shopping sprees yet wahahas.. but hey I offered to hold your stuff (: haha good 1st few steps lol.. ok now on for more other MEN training.. lol

Today I just wanna blog about some nugget I got from Pastor's rabbit trails.. it was his last phrase:

In Christ all prayers are answered. Christ is the reason every prayer is answered

I thought it was awesome 'cos i was on the 147 bus after George and I got down the 133 bus. I wanted to recap what Pastor said today and the 1st thing I saw was this line I wrote in my notebook. Immediately daddy nudged me to go study it and see why Jesus was the reason every prayer is answered 'cos honestly I doubted in my heart when I prayed for someone over the phone. like will God really answer my prayer.. I believe therefore I speak but.. erm yeah.. so this is what I wrote in my notebook

Daddy loves Jesus so much that he WILL grant whatever the son asks

Matt 18:19-20
v.19 if 2 shall agree it shall be done
v.20 when 2 or 3 are gathered in my name there I am in the midst

Jn11:42 Jesus: you ALWAYS hear me..

Jn16:23 In that day you will no longer ask me anything. I tell you the truth, my Father Will give you whatever you ASK in MY NAME.

Because I am in Christ the prayers I pray are prayed by Christ. Jesus takes all my prayers removes the self-centered-ness and excess unneeded stuff and adds HIS beauty perfection and perfume so that everything I pray in Jesus name is perfect and holy!

Be blessed! and stay adorable [boss' favourite line (: ]

Wow.. strong words from a Christian like me..

But that's the words Paul used to describe what he preached and what all REAL Christians preach I say REAL Christians, not those who hide behind the 10 commandments and believe that they can live a holy life.. It is an IMPOSSIBLE life to live.. Give up.. Really Give up trying to do what Jesus would do in a situation it is futile..

1Co 1:23 But we preach Christ crucified, unto the Jews a stumbling block, and unto the Greeks foolishness;
24 But unto them which are called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God, and the wisdom of God.

if you look up Strong's and you read the real Greek that Paul wrote in Stumbling Block is the word skandalon which means a scandal and foolishness isn't just the word it says it is.. it's the word moria which comes the word moron!

Paul used such strong words.. but to us who are called.. that's those who believe in His unmerited, unearned, undeserving Grace, Christ is Power and wisdom..

I tell you why it's only for those who are under Grace.. I'll need a whole hour to do so actually.. but just a few examples..

Nicodemus came to Jesus and just one sentence Jesus cut him off.. You need to be born again.. but look at the woman at the well who Jesus sent afterward to witness to Samaria she went on and on and on about everything and Jesus let her.. But she caught a glimpse of the revelation of him the Living water that changed her life.. what a moron Jesus was.. wasn't that pharisee more educated than that woman at the well.. wasn't he more righteous than she was?she had 5 husbands and even the man she was living with wasn't her husband.. shouldn't Jesus pay more attention to Nicodemus?

More? Luke 17 & 18 A RICH YOUNG ruler came to Jesus.. Lord what must I DO.. wrong words to use.. Jesus challenged him and told him off.. Sell all that you have and give everything to the poor and come follow me.. next chapter who do we see?Zacchaeus the tax collector.. a sinner, a cheat.. what does Jesus say? come down for I will go to your house to eat!?!? scandalous! a RICH YOUNG RULER! RULER! who has kept the Tora since he was young versus a small puny good for nothing sinner.. and look what Zacchaeus did.. I will give half my possessions to the poor and to those who I cheated, fourfold..

Wow! what an amazing impact Grace is.. Jesus gave the righteous by works the law, but to the sinner grace.. now I'd rather be the sinner who receives Grace than the self-righteous ruler who receives nothing but the left foot of fellowship..

I quote from the book Grace Amazing by Steve McVey.. This chapter starts by him saying that there's this guy Ed Sullivan who spins plates on 10 feet tall rods.. so he would shake the rod to keep the plate spinning and after a few minutes, he would be running around the whole stage shaking rods to keep the plates spinning..

okay now if he were to be likened to a Christian, living a "christian life", working and running around to keep all the moral and religious works afloat.. then God comes along and pushes off the plates, The Baptist would be rededicating their lives to try harder to keep the plates up next time, the Pentecostals rebuking the demon of plate breaking, the Charismatics: "In Jesus name plate you are healed", the Presbyterians concluding that it had been predestined to break from the beginning of time, the Methodist would start a committee to analyse and study if the plates had any sin or it was inherent disposition for the plates to be broken..

now you see why Grace isn't fair? it never is, nor has it ever been.. 'cause all our sins fell on the sinless Jesus and his righteousness fell on us.. isn't that so unfair? shouldn't we be paying for our own sins? but God chose mercy and to grant us favour.. turning his back on Jesus his son to adopt us as sons who can call him ABBA, FATHER in such an intimate and loving way with the knowledge of HIS love for us, not our love for him..

That's why I live my life for Jesus and I can truly live a Christian life.. a Christ centered Christian life.. not Christ as 1st place in my life 'cause there's gonna be something that will come as 2nd place, but Christ as my WHOLE life..

why i can live this life? Because by my effort, I can't..and God loves such people 'cause they know there's only 1 way to live this life.. by allowing Christ to live the Christian life through them.. that's what the father loves.. and I am proud to say that I am weak in myself so that Christ can be my strength..

Gal 6:14 But God forbid that I should boast except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, by whom the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world.

I was reading 2 Sam 23:20-23 you know the part about David's mighty men? yeah I thought I'd wanted to learn and see more for myself.. what struck me was that I was Googling names of these mighty men and this appeared in one of the site-ref http://www.growingchristians.org/dfgc/mighty.html

I didn't agree to some parts of it 'cos spiritual warfare is not tiring.. It is easy and light.. cos Jesus has already won the victory.. the part where he quotes the devil comes as a roaring lion.. cast your cares onto Jesus.. it's easy.. the struggle that may be tiring is turning your eyes to see yourself actively throwing your cares upon Jesus.. that's hare for someone who was hidden his cares in his heart for at least 18 years wow!

Hanyway.. Benaiah's name means God has established

20And Benaiah son of Jehoiada, a valiant man of Kabzeel, who had done many notable acts, slew two lion-like men of Moab. He went down also and slew a lion in a pit on a snowy day.

21And he slew an Egyptian, a handsome man. The Egyptian had a spear in his hand, but Benaiah went down to him with a staff, snatched the spear out of the Egyptians hand, and slew the man with his own spear.

22These things Benaiah son of Jehoiada did, and won a name beside the three mighty men.

23He was more renowned than the Thirty, but he attained not to the [first] Three. David set him over his guard or council.

1 thing I noted was that He killed lion-like men and a Lion.. sounds familiar huh.. David himself killed a lion and Goliath whom David himself claimed was not as lion-like as a lion.. I mean if David could say I have killed a Lion and a bear.. which means he placed Goliath on par with lions and bears (: is that why David had higher regard for him than all his other 30 men to place him charge over his council?

2 when fighting the Egyptian he went down with a staff.. what kind of staff?maybe a shepherds staff? hmm sounds familiar I think? 1 Sam 17:43 "Am I a dog that you come at me with sticks?"

what was Davids reply? I'm sure David must have prayed.. and he did he prayed in fact earnestly like what pastor preached..

46 This day the Lord will deliver you into my hand, and I will smite you and cut off your head. And I will give the corpses of the army of the Philistines this day to the birds of the air and the wild beasts of the earth, that all the earth may know that there is a God in Israel.

47And all this assembly shall know that the Lord saves not with sword and spear; for the battle is the Lord's, and He will give you into our hands.

He declared his victory and he knew where his victory lay.. it is the Lord's battle and his victory.. I'm sure David knew He already had the victory.. that's why he had so much courage.. I mean he could have thought what if my stone misses? I only have 5? his armour is so thick how am I supposed to penetrate it?

back to benaiah..

where did he find his strength this strength and courage? remenber, those who were at Adullam cave were distressed in debt and discontented.. how would a distressed man with all the cares in the world fight a lion and even go into the pit to destroy it.. it's like walking into the gates of hell.. singling the devil out and spraying him with a water pistol till he surrenders..

So beloveds.. I want you to remember that Jesus is our David.. to do these wondrous exploits is not easy naturally, but knowing that a fellowship with our heavenly David removes your cares worries and burdens gives you the strength to kill lions, slay demons and terrorise the devil!!!

Shalom! and don't worry especially at this time where it is the most crucial study period.. don't worry about what results you want to get for it is the Lord's exam and it is his victory.. can God fail? neither will you just keep trusting in his favour and grace.. keep studying with the peace inside you! Jesus is faithful to his word and whatever you ask in his name you SHALL receive AMEN!

Man city draws Brighton and crashes out 5-3 on penalties.. OMG lar whats the pt of buying such a superb striker when you.. haiz.. forget it (:

MAN UTD!!!

Hokay so here's the earth -> -> -> http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/end

Joel's waiting for his ram and graphics card then he shall set out to find the earth (:

Okay God bless China and the 3 astronauts.. they're gonna start a space station? Possible moon landings? I don't know, but I know they're gna walk a man around their shuttle.. haha nxt month I shall be like China but I shall own China!!! ahahaha... SPORE!!!

A Joke.. There was once this University Lecturer who was lecturing about the purpose of life commented: I'd have my life remembered as a roll of toilet paper.. this stunned the class.. a life that is long and useful.. to that the front rows applauded..

as the applause died down, there came this small respite from the back of the hall.. nah he's just bitter 'cos his life's been long cheap and exploited.. and of most of all he does are the shitty jobs..

Ok that aside.. I've been crashing Nus lectures haha nothing better to do.. ok I'm so sry but I guess it's my only way I can keep my brain in functioning order..anws yeah but it scares me when yeah you realise that food chem kills off all your desire to eat gd food cause all you see is preservatives, cancer, everything bad tt's all..

anws Je Me Souviens 20 09 2008 because joel is a man of honour..

Thats all that matters.. Jesus thank you for showering your love on me and reminding me of your love on the cross. teach me your love and let me experience your love anew afresh.. and let me love out of the overflow of my heart.. Eph 3:14-20

Joel has news that is a double edged sword..

he has the record no. of offs in Band B.. that sux because he has a problem clearing them but it rocks cos he can spend time away from work.. BUT.. it still sux cos he prefers someone telling him what to do..serious.. Joel is so not disciplined to sit dwn and study.. DIE..

erm study hm.. okay.. well at least take out a book and read.. Joel wants to teach tuition too.. 2 reasons: 1 for more money.. 2 to keep his brain running.. so ppl who want tuition pls contact me.. $150 a mth 1.5 hrs/wk.. lol.. Math, Add Math, Phy.. u tell me..

okay bad advertisement, but oh well it was worth the try (:

Up till nw.. I still have no idea what course to choose, where to go, do i really want to teach music? or do I stick to Math & Phy.. but I can't teach Math to a big class above marking Math.. it's just too boring.. and Phy I wonder if my students will understand what I'm explaining.. need to be more simplistic I guess when explaining.. haha.. right so much for that..

Okay Joel shall be bad and go play games (: SPORE!!!

Oh yeah pls contribut to the Joel needsanew RAM and Graphics card fund.. haha.. 1800-pls-help.. ok ok jk jk

bye bye have fun (:

Joel is Godlike (:
Joel just bought SPORE (:
Joel creates a race of monsters (:
Monsters go around owning other monsters (:
Monsters with nukes and spaceships (:
Joel is Godlike (:

okay it's kinda like playing God?! which is something I don't really accept but the game is fun and the creativity is OMG.. I find that as I play the game my spiritual alarm bells go off and I'm like hm.. isn't this evolution theory? it's like saying hey God look at me I can do what you're doing too.. which is pretty wrong..

But on the other hand you kinda like take care of your tribe of creatures care for them, feed them, guard them.. It reminds me of how God is like? yea how he's always taking care of me and always seeing to my best interest.. you can't help but marvel.. if you, someone imperfect, finite, with all the flaws in your life, can choose to devote such attention to something non-living, a computer graphic, a piece of code in a spinning disc.. imagine what God is like.. Perfect and Infinite God..

I really do!

Okay I'm finally back.. on my blog that is.. I've realised my blog links are mostly dead or the blogs at the receiving end of my dial tone are dead.. so.. okay I was trying to catch up with peoples lives.. the people whom I admire and stalk.. ZOMG I actually said that.. haha..

hm.. just read blogger buzz article 27th Aug.. Fine I'm 6 days late.. the one about showing off your followers.. http://buzz.blogger.com/ yeah.. at least I might let people know I'm following their blog.. haha.. well if your blog is still alive and you actually update it I'll put my name in (: erm unless you'd like to see less of my face and rather not know I stalk your blog.. okay fine.. at least I don't Ninja people's blogs anymore haha..



Canada described in 7 words: fun cold hot boring interesting entertaining tiring.. enough adjectives? wait verb or adjective.. erm adjectives are descriptive words right? haha.. okay okay it's verbs.. haha till date Joel still has this sad dilemma

the plane ride was 12h to Amsterdam and 7 h to Canada.. didn't have time to leave Schiphol airport, that's at Amsterdam, so we stoned in the airport at the casino.. it was very interesting 'cos I mean chance doesn't happen 3 times.. we were at the roulette table and I was guessing.. so I said black.. all were b4 the 'dealer'? spinner? fine b4 the wheel was spun.. so 1st I said black.. then I said Red and both came out right.. I was Daddy.. really arh my words are so powerful even for worldly means.. so I said one last time 37 red.. I didn't even know if 37 was red or not.. and it turned out I was right again.. it was amazing..

I mean if my words are so powerful even for worldly means, then what if I used them to edify and pray over people's lives.. I'd be a walking blessing to everyone.. and no I did not bet anything.. I don't like the idea of wasting money on betting and gambling.. I believe in card counting.. (: what was the last count? +14? ok or -7?

Canadians are really great audience.. they beat Singaporeans.. if Singaporeans actually appreciated art for arts sake not OMG he's so handsome even if his voice is super CMI.. We got standing ovations for every concert that we put up.. they loved our shows.. was so touched when they came over and said from Singapore? we love your music.. wahey not that bad after all..

Okay I made a pretty lot of errors.. I don't know is there a way to force yourself to focus your attention if not by asking God? I think I didn't ask tt's why..
Oh and our display was awesome! really awesome.. I don't know if they loved our fan gimmicks but they sure loved our fans.. they were begging for ours.. sadly we can't give them away 'cos they're SAF property.. haha.. but I sure made alot of friends in Canada.. it's so cool.. one thing I must say Canadians are really laid back too.. they aren't that strict but they're serious when it comes to work.. just listen to their music and visit them backstage..

Toured the Quebec city area and saw the old walls the fort and the burnt armoury.. was so beautiful.. even the way it burnt it looked so majestic.. even ruins can look majestic.. wow! OH! and horse drawn carriages (: they had horse drawn carriages OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!

I guess that's about all from Canada.. I learnt alot about my behaviour and my attention span.. if I worry too much and force myself to concentrate.. I'm bound to fail.. yeah.. but oh well.. I need to practice more yeah and clean up my sight reading..

Amsterdam was full of weed, pornography, prostitutes and racist people telling us to throw our mother's shoes in Cantonese.. ok nvm don't learn canton vulgarities okay (: but the pornography and prostitution was WOW!!! every corner you turn there was a sex shop, there was this alley that had glass windows and behind each cell was a bed with a door.. outside were women in bikinis posing.. there was this one who had her love handles overflowing.. OMG it was disgusting.. but it really opened my eyes (not in that sense mind you) but yeah that I'd rather stay and live in Singapore than a city like that.. no offense but long live freedom and democracy! if you get my tone..

I'll let the pics do the talking bye!

http://s41.photobucket.com/albums/e282/joelnye89/Canada/

To My Dearest teachers.. I'm sorry this black thing in the bus screwed up my message to you.. it was over animated over beautified uglified it and most probably gave you a bad headache because of the clashing colours..I promise I'll buy you a box of paracetamol next year for teachers' day instead and I promise I'll never allow anyone to disgust you even though they may seem so so so helpful..

O Canada!
Our home and native land!
True patriot love in all thy sons command.

With glowing hearts we see thee rise,
The True North strong and free!

From far and wide,
O Canada, we stand on guard for thee.

God keep our land glorious and free!
O Canada, we stand on guard for thee.

O Canada, we stand on guard for thee.


And I'm going to have to play that some time in the next 2 weeks.. wow!

The long march to this destination that I now stand and am ready to undertake it's task that come has been a fruitful and wonderous experience.. learning how to sight read at speed when you practically have no time to practice..

All the running notes and craziness training rythms and octave jumps.. wow.. especially since it's been a long gruelling march since 50th anniversary through Conducting masterclass and National Day..

I thank God he has pulled me through and showed me things about me I didn't see.. both good and bad.. time to let him work on my bad through Canada.. erm yeah Stress-free!

Au revoir!

Okay.. so well.. it's 4 days to National Day.. Yay right Kids? You get a holiday and another monday off.. Joel has to slog under the sun with screwed up timers(as in people) who give us wrong timings.. like okay go eh no wait wait.. now go.. no no.. stop.. okay go! LIKE WTF!!! and if you watch the display, you don't see the curtain opening before we start playing.. the cat's out of the bag..

Nevermind about that.. It's been a hell of a week and there's not much to blog about.. Central Band's going Canada and I'm tagging along.. playing Eb./. but hey Band A's attached already but we're still going dwn for parade.. tmr there's a TRADOC Change of Command.. Thrs we have Prestige guard.. I don't know who's coming.. Next Tues we're playing for the Australian Dunno who.. prime minister or some other minister.. so we're learning the Australian National Anthem.. and I fly off the day after..

WOW!!! where's my rest? I've really got no time.. not that I'm bitter about it, but I just need rest.. No I'm not complaining 'cos I love Band B.. But can I have time to do last minute packing?

I really don't know what to blog about leh.. oh wait I kinda said everything I needed.. okay (:

BYEBYE! HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE! I LOVE YOU FOR TAKING MY SATURDAYS AWAY SO I CAN SERVE YOU

17 days ago.. I thought I would blog the next day..
16 days ago.. I thought I would blog the next day..
15 days ago.. I thought I would blog the next day..
14 days ago.. I thought I would blog the next day..
13 days ago.. I thought I would blog the next day..
12 days ago.. I thought I would blog the next day..

Should I continue?

11 days ago.. I thought I would blog the next day..
10 days ago.. I thought I would blog the next day..
9 days ago.. I thought I would blog the next day..
8 days ago.. I thought I would blog the next day..
7 days ago.. I thought I would blog the next day..
6 days ago.. I thought I would blog the next day..

FINE FINE I'll save you the agony.. anws I've been REALLY REALLY busy.. Concert, Masterclass, 50th Anniversary, Canada rehearsals, NDP rehearsals.. just to name A FEW.. A FEW only not much.. yeah like parades everyday too.. plus funerals and what ever nonsense.. ok choy choy.. touch wood.. enough funerals..

Funerals ARE sad.. It's like 2 weeks ago this 1WO was super healthy and running around scolding people during SAF day.. man.. it's really saddening..

enough of it.. I bless all SAF personnel with good health.. so I don't need to do anymore funerals.. ok ok sry sry.. but really.. ok nvm forget I said anything..

ANYWAY I've been mod-ing C&C.. It's super fun and super imba now.. okay imba that it's balanced.. yeah.. C&C Tiberium Sun is now not just in the future, it's now super space age.. haha..

For that matter, I'm watching the Black Knights on TV and they're super cool.. You have GOT to come down for NDP.. really.. lucky you all those kiasu ppl who have got tickets.. haha..

ok Ciao me gtg.. cya arnd say 10 15 days later? byebye! love you all you voyeurs (:

Okay let's face it.. work is boring.. even though it's something u like to do, it's boring..all I do is to report early and wait.. do something for 1 hour and wait to be released, sadly after the whole event is over..

It's really killing my brain.. it's making me so lazy I've stopped studying.. I can't even make myself read the papers.. OMG! it's killing me..

Solomon's advice is so apt:
Prov 6:6.. Go to the ant, you sluggard; observe its ways and be wise!

I'm seeing lots of ants this week.. there are 3 ways up to the white house since it's situated on a hill.. 1: the long road, 2: the drain, 3: the shortcut up the dirt path..

There's an ant hill on the grass patch off the drain.. so it's practically an invasion of the ants.. another ant hill's being erected in the middle of the dirt path.. so practically, we're being surrounded by ants.. no joke i saw the ants.. I mean they're the best engineers ever.. proportional to their size, the make the largest and strongest tunnels.. what about us humans.. fallen man is a joke.. we need to test the soil need to do this and that.. they're natural.. and VERY hard working..

Jesus I need help.. really I need to wake up.. and ironically I've been asking people to wake up and do something productive.. GOD! HELP ME!

Good job for the concert.. Well.. I really hope you guys can pull it off in Florence and Milan.. Kudos to the winds section.. Awesomeness.. Keep going.. You guys are great..
Horns, I hope you guys check your tuning and touch up your technical.. Brasses, you guys really have to watch the conductor.. Trombones I love your strength and power, but you really have to be together with the orchestra.. And strings.. haiz.. I hope you guys crop up a miracle in Italy.. You guys are playing as individuals who coincidentally play together.. You guys aren't playing like a section yet.. You guys need more sectionals without the conductor.. Just listening and watching each other, your concert mistress and section leaders..

Haiz.. Too late to say anything now since you guys are ready to fly off.. God bless you all and may you do Singapore and all of us alumni proud.. I wish I could be there with you guys so that we can savour our victory together (:

Well if you guys get first again, Jiarong and Daphne, roti prata on me! (: .. I don't have that much money though LOL..

---

I'm so gonna miss you.. Thanks so much for accompanying me today..

All hail the mighty Spaniards.. Apparently all Spanish fans are going to shave their heads if Spain wins the Euro 2008.. Wow they've got a hell lot in Pulau Tekong..

my sympathy goes out to the families of the OCT(2LT) and REC who died this week.. it's all so sudden i don't know if we can actually point fingers to who did what wrong or who did not do what.. I believe death is natural, just as life is.. and I know it is hard to accept such..








Well.. if you want to blame anyone.. blame some ppl for that eventful night in bunk.. okay I'm sry really not the time to joke now.. well my sympathy goes out to Band A too..

on a lighter note.. I saw this written on the urinal at OCS.. it said no leaking..

okay so is it no leaking as in no peeing allowed in this urinal.. or not leaking?

Joel Just started staying in this week.. BLOODY HELL.. the bunk's freaking messy, hot and it's pissing me off.. BLOODY HELL.. and I'm sleeping beside a rubbish dump.. apparently that was the bed they dumped ALL their stuff on.. guitar, tv, hangers, kiwi and brush, papers, blankets.. BLOODY HELL..

The whole of Monday was NDP parade rehearsal.. just one incident spoiled my whole mood that instant.. I'm happy I get over things fast.. It's like we're holding fanfare trumpets and trombones with these LONG bells and I happened to plonk myself on the bench without looking behind me.. obviously I knocked into this other guy who was holding his instrument.. well not him but his instrument's bell and he told me off.. BLOODY HELL.. it's like hey I'm the one in pain and here you are telling me to watch where I sit.. BLOODY HELL..

Otherwise Monday was not too bad a day 'cos it was rather enjoyable.. Today was OMGBBQWTF! BLOODY HELL!

I was in the band office and some of the LCP and CPL were playing taboo.. it was hilarious..

(Librarian) Staff Sergeant (insert name).. we were asking for his appointment.. 1st answer that came out.. GAY! There were many more and I tell you, for half of the answers, the 1st words that came out were sex-related.. oh yeah.. (vegan) What am I? ans: BIMBO!!!

but Lunch totally sucked.. I don't know.. how can people be so childish and immature.. Monday was already a VERY good example of a childish fucker.. and today OMG BLOODY HELL..

I called a certain person 'cos everyone else I called didn't pick up.. so apparently all of them were at the cook house.. My batch mates that is.. and so I headed down after knowing where they were.. the moment I got my food and sat down beside this guy, he told me off again.. He has his pre-paid summary in my face and showing me that he had $0.91 and zero free SMS-es.. well so apparently it's my fault that I called him and now he cannot sms at all.. LIKE BLOODY HELL hey you can always go top up your FUCKING pre-paid card right?

worse.. during dinner.. I was kind enough to intend to sit next to him and even told the other guys to go sit there and not leave him alone.. so he moves over to the other table anyway and when he saw me approaching, he pulled this other guy and forced him to sit next to him and then gave me that "fuck off, I don't want you to sit next to me" childish glare.. I was like OMG WTF BLOODY HELL.. I don't know.. I can't stand it anymore.. there's more but it didn't concern me..

Really gets me reflecting and thinking.. be less irritating too but hey wasn't this a little too overboard? and trivial? BLOODY HELL

My Mom had this seminar at SAJC today.. haha lol so cool sia go back to my school for seminar.. lol

Oh well sad to say the thousand plus people that crammed the cultural center were no older than the children they teach; preschoolers..

Save my mom who has the most brains and maybe a few more.. oh well for example, they rushed for refreshments, cluster fuck to get drinks when they could have been in an orderly queue.. and they are the very ones to command their students to queue up.. lol.. super angsty lar Joel..


angsty is not in the dictionary.. well they've yet to add it into the dictionary..


anyways, I'm glad that the school system is changing for, well i guess, the good 'cos now Chinese is going to be Singaporean instead of Cheena.. yeah that I'm glad.. apparently there are sooooo many PRC's in pre-schools teaching Cheena Chinese.. so well tt kinda sux 'cos vocab you use in CN isn't what you use in SG.. so yeah.. it's good that there's a change.. not that I'm against PRCs

Oh and yeah we were also talking about 3rd gen businesses and how an economist noted why they were failing to be at the level they were at 3 generations b4

Tradition.. One of the biggest problems.. things that do not change will never appeal to the youths and the next generation 'cos times change.. even though there's nothing new under the sun.. no example to quote though but I guess traditions are good for some stuff.. example food

If you look at Ya Kun.. giving examples only.. Ya Kun is GOOD for their traditional style of food.. but look at Toast Box.. big rival with innovations.. okay Ya Kun's got it's innovations too.. but yeah this example already states how tradition is good for some but i guess tradition sux for dressing.. yeah not salad dressing but yeah clothes.. imagine wearing Gregorian.. lol..

yeah but I think Ya Kun and Toast Box rawrkz.. can they like have joint business venture? oh yeah then go find Bread Talk and joint venture too.. lol wahahas

okay Joel is cranky now.. must be the hunger.. okay ciao go eat alr bye..


I love Gallery West.. I soooooo love Gallery West.. is it okay to say that? hm.. It's nice and cold, okay it's really warm too somehow someplace

---

): Joel is sad and sry he can't go for concert on 080608 ):

Watched Prince Caspian with alot of ppl from New Creation.. okay pls don't call Joel a Holy holey freak okay.. it's not always that I see something in a movie okay..

For those Christians who have watched Prince Caspian.. here's some beautiful truths..

Lucy was the only one to see Aslan 1st.. during the night Susan asked why only Lucy saw Aslan.. It struck me: only if you become like these little children can you enter the Kingdom of Heaven.. It's like wow! If you have this kind of child-like faith to believe, you know.. you see God in everywhere where ppl can't see him..

And Aslan called Lucy twice! WOW! adding on, Lucy remarked that Aslan had grown bigger and Aslan said every year you grow, I grow.. It's like the bigger you grow in the Lord, the bigger God will be to you.. it's maturity in Christ.. like the more you mature, the more you are able to see God there to help you to strengthen you and give you strength..

There was this other part where they tried to summon the white witch.. and when Edmund broke the ice, behind was this carving of Aslan.. it's like they turned to the world for answers and blocked out the true answer that was behind the veil that they erected and it blinded them from seeing their breakthrough.. and also when the whte witch said only a drop of your blood.. it's like will it be your blood or Jesus' blood? and you know what the white witch did in the Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe.. If you turn to the world and work, symbolised by your blood, all the self effort, you will be blinded and you will end up in a lot of trouble..

why turn to the world when you should turn to GOD

Yay! Today we had half-day off! woohoos!

After so many NDP practices we finally get recognition for it haha lol.. yeah so I burned the day off sleeping and doing some stuff.. but well I'm MORE THAN SATISFIED of what happened in the afternoon.. okay kinda weird to say that but oh well.. anws it's not going to be a habit.. I'll believe God for that..

The past few weeks have been wow.. okay lots of ups and downs, lots of soul searching and praying, searching for answers.. but well some answers don't come instantly.. I'll be real patient for them..

Oh and the Zone concert was a BLAST! too bad no photography allowed.. but we had alot of pre-service photos (: courtesy of Kelly (: see more on her facebook? oh well go visit thezone.org.sg

all the jumping and almost near head-banging.. wahahas.. really rocked the whole house down.. Pastor was amazing too really spoke to me.. yeah but it was really sad that the people behind me were so unreceptive to the grace message.. God you lift the veil that blinds them.. it's kinda sad that people don't believe in the real JESUS.. 'cos Bible says only in Christ is the veil is lifted..

acceptance is in CHRIST. says it all.

today Pastor Benjamin preached a powerful message.. I took this home, above all the other things he said..

Acceptance is in CHRIST, not self.. do not trust in your self effort.. look at the difference in king Saul and David..

Saul was a person who cared about what others said to him.. He was afraid of what others said.. look at 1 Sam 15:24

24 Then Saul finally admitted, "Yes I have sinned. i have disobeyed your instruction and the LORD's command, for I was afraid of the people and did what they demanded.

but look at David in 1 Sam 17:28-30

28 But when David’s oldest brother, Eliab, heard David talking to the men, he was angry. "What are you doing around here anyway?" he demanded. "What about those few sheep you’re supposed to be taking care of? I know about your pride and deceit. You just want to see the battle!"

29 "What have I done now?" David replied. "I was only asking a question!"

30 He walked over to some others and asked them the same thing and received the same answer.

David did not care what his brother said.. He was unafraid because he had God's acceptance and man's didn't matter.. He knew his name meant Beloved! moreover, He had all his time to bask and soak in his destiny while he was tending the sheep..

On a little side note.. Apparently, his father rejected him and so did his brothers.. when Samuel visited Jesse and his sons, David was absent! can you imagine that? A father who called his son beloved forgot about his son? an important sacrifice with THE prophet of God.. kinda shows how much his father cared.. But David was unscathed.. he remembered his destiny and that he was the beloved of God.. tt's why God said David was a man after God's own heart.. He knew that he was the beloved of God.. and that's in our ABBA's heart that we know we are his beloved because of Jesus!

It is as sure as you are Roderigo,
Were I the Moor, I would not be Iago:
In following him, I follow but myself;
Heaven is my judge, not I for love and duty,
But seeming so, for my peculiar end:
For when my outward action doth demonstrate
The native act and figure of my heart
In compliment extern, 'tis not long after
But I will wear my heart upon my sleeve
For daws to peck at: I am not what I am.

Joel is Disillusioned. He though everything was going fine. apparently it isn't. why GOD? why must Politics crush the very soul of my existence. I too will take a hiatus. where is my joy? is it still to be found in the lord? if so why am I running away from it? is there a better road? for both to take? why now? why so soon? Joel is numb. just numb. he never wanted it to end this way. neither for it to ever end.

I can't express myself. no words can. the anguish and hurt. Jesus, do not allow me to fall into depression. I don't want to have to climb back up again.

I was waiting to sing a birthday song on 1st July. never will materialise this year. maybe it might. there's this flicker of hope. I hope it just isn't the glint of a knife.

I wrote this last night.. all comes with inspiration and then finding the best words as quoted from imoto-chan.. Happy Birthday to ME ME ME!

Flags flutter;
war cry- the horn calls

in battle.
Red passion and obsession
oozes
from crimson blades.
Fire- burning love
into anger-
hatred.

Cacophony
of voices
screaming

curses.
Floods of tears
engulf
cries of sorrow

and grief.
The horn of the vultures

feasting
on the soul
of victorious men.
I lie torn

shredded.
Hung up
a mockery.

It's been 19 years..
Joel has been transformed from GLORY to GLORY! Well thank God he's the one who completed everything for me.. Look at Jesus.. the epitomy of beauty, holiness and grace.. And as He is so am I in this world! woohoos!

Happy Birthday to my (evil) twin.. it's been really fun having known you (: yeah thx for all the wacky fun and lameness! so OMGWTF haha! God Bless you!

2 more days! yay I'm so happy! ZOMG lor.. I'm 19 wows!

Today SGT PL got the shock of HER life.. we were changing in our holding room which was facing the gym.. so she stepped out and looked into our holding room.. so happens that Nathaniel saw her and waved.. so the next sequence of events was horrifyingly funny..

she waved back and immediately her gaze fell beyond Nat.. then she covered her eyes, 'squealed' and ran away.. whatever happened was so OMG! her gaze fell on a particular someone in the midst of changing and had nothing on but his underwear.. it was so OMG! the rest of the day was history.. muster parade we saw her and immediately all of us were OMG ......... you die!see she complaining to everyone already..

Oh the best that happened.. during afternoon muster, Yi heng, one of the clarinettist, had to respond when his name was called out.. so he went staff-- in the shrillest and highest pitched voice you could ever imagine coming from a guy.. we were like WTF! and no one stood still after that.. the laughter just erupted for like 2 minutes and after we fell-out we were 'staff', 'staff,' 'staff' in the yi heng voice.. It was totally OMG..

HOW amusing SAF bands can get huh.. wah lao eh.. I wish this were everyday.. okay ciaos I go do my No.1.. inspection on wed..

I wonder if it were really just an advertisement? It's interesting really when you look at life and you find that you're really placed at 1 place once in a life time and you're given only 1 chance.. it's kinda like make or break..

life is TODAY and NOW not tomorrow and what ifs.. I thank God I have someone to hold firm onto when I'm stressed and worried.. So much is happening and fatigue is starting to wear me out.. I don't know what keeps me running.. I'm really just so tired.. and what I'm doing is not proportionate to what I do.. ARRGHH!! F*** it.. alright ignore my ranting..

but yeah it seems that life never stops to teach you a lesson.. or lessons for that matter.. so much for being enrolled into the school of hard knocks.. but I believe that I have a harvest ahead of me.. I'm transferred to the school of favour and grace you see.. yeah so I have a future.. In this world but NOT of this world!

We were supposed to have "merry-go-round" today.. apparently it got canceled 'cos of the lightning and rain.. so we were supposed to wait out the lightning warning at 1st b4 the downpour.. and everything that could go wrong went horridly wrong

The band B drum major was practicing with his mace, when suddenly he uttered a loud shout of agony.. we rushed to him as he was walking back clutching his eye.. a bee had stung his eyelid! like wtf *&%$%^&!@%@^

Yesterday Clarence Chio already got stung.. today Sgt Boon Hui.. OMG thank God we reported the hazard.. so in the evening the guys came and torched the nest.. so cool lar can (: it's like he set fire to the hive and suddenly you see little flakes of fire falling..

"hey what are those things dropping?"
"bird shit.. no lar the bees lar!"
"wah so cool!"

yeah well.. but secretly inside us, the whole band, we were so happy.. aiyo so sadistic.. haha S&M sia.. lol.. THBT S&M should be banned.. nvm inside joke (:

---

Happy birthday to you
May the good Lord bless you
Happy birthday to Cynthia
May the good Lord bless you

Fun laughter peace and joy.. more like fun sLAUGHTER PiEaCEs for JOY.. today was so OMGBBQWTF.. imagine yourself doing a display with so much movement and turning and the tempo is sooooooo fast and you're expected to play the next beat when u just lifted up your instrument eg. 5-6-7-8(instrument up)-1(play)-2.. and the tempo is like 140bpm so yeah.. like OMGBBQWTF.. it's soooo confusing oso..

Faidhi! rawr! it's too difficult serious.. no doubt we'll try our best, but it's practically impossible!

On the other hand.. I love our NDP display.. it's only April and everything's in place.. everyone(some exceptions however) knows their parts already.. now it's just the fine tuning.. hey it's frigging cool i'm serious! so you've gotta be there @ the NDP! it's wow.. there's Provost joining in, so it's not just instruments, but rifles and bikes and whatever not (: I'm so excited!

IPPT's next week and I'm like so flabby now ): can't even run 6 rounds around the white house.. zzz okay maybe it's more than 2.4km, but my calf muscle, left calf is getting strained too easily.. oh man.. so sad.. and this sux.. my tone, breath support and technique sux.. and my Chief instructor expects so much from me just because I wear the SNYO tag.. damn.. it's really stressful.. JESUS I'LL HAND MY PRESSURE TO YOU.. YOU SETTLE IT FOR ME 'COS I'M TOO WEAK TO DO IT MYSELF.. Everything of Christ, nothing of me..

---

Thanks so much for the help on the blogskin (: wow it's really nice haha cya on fri!

~ENTER THE ZONE~

Organised especially for youths, THE ZONE will
be one of the most exhilarating events of the year!
With electrifying music by the dynamic
Hillsong United band from Sydney, Australia,
and an anointed message by Pastor Benjamin Lim,
be prepared for an awesome night!

Date: Saturday,24th may 2008
Time: 630–10pm
Venue: The Max Pavillion, Singapore Expo
(doors open at 6pm)
Price: $5 per ticket*

---

*Entry by tickets only

Am playing checkers with 妹ちゃん.. she beat me at reversi and minesweeper flags.. yes we're like skrewing MSN games.. haha.. but oh well in the end she won, 'cos i forfeited the game.. haha bo liao lar just to let her win haha..

I was reading some books today on the way to camp.. felt both happy and sad.. happy that the author had her share of fun and whatever else.. all her joyous times, really happy for her.. but quite sad about all her disappointments and yeah whenever she felt crushed, i could feel it tingle in me.. i wonder why.. is it supposed to be this real? I'd rather only feel the elation, but I guess the pain and anguish comes as a package too.. but as for me, I'll throw the pain to Jesus. (you do it too k?)

Today Band was so OMGWTF.. was the 1st time we had full band.. combined with Band B.. crazy! my sight reading still sux OMGWTF ARRGHH!!! Oh well must practice.. but hey bandstand's in my head alr.. memorised alr (: super happy haha.. had recording too.. for SAF 50th Anniversary.. wow I think they did really well except for the occasional screeching clarinets and overpowering piccolo.. wow the horns were like rushing too haha.. plus now the knowledge that I'll be doing 2 PARADES!!! DISPLAY mind you.. which means more memorising of both score and steps.. OMGWTF!!! GOD spare my memory and my brain cells, u do the supernatural memorising for me k?

NDP display's sort of taking shape already.. except for the er.. okay shouldn't spoil the show.. haha but you guys are in for a treat so all u Pri 5s and ppl going for the parade itself.. come early! we've got a great show!!! haha yeah!

And I've realised that S-pop's got a future.. haha if IF we Singaporeans support it.. apparently we're just too academical.. where's the room for aesthetics? oh well.. listening to dreamz fm.. sound gd.. great control on the falsettos.. right time to knock off.. Ciao! Aishiteru!

I'm really amused.. there was this guy on the bus today who apparently had a rough day in school.. he was like sleeping and his position was really weird.. like he was going to fall off anytime; head hanging off his shoulder, body angled 70º.. well the bus just turned a sharp corner and he practically flew off his seat onto the floor.. like WOW! that's so cool, do it again!

okay shan't be mean.. but today was really amusing.. cos I was so stoned today.. practically crashed through the whole NDP rehearsal.. the display is starting to take shape, but dressing still horridly crookedly aligned.. yeah so i was like half closing my eyes while marching, but to my amazement, I did everything right and i was kinda following dressing even with my eyes closed! now how cool is that? okay I guess I'll do that from now on since it worked so well (:

But yeah today was boring and kinda stoned.. alot to do, but boring stuff like inspection.. important yeah no doubt, but RAWR! i was like almost drenched in my sweat! I so don't believe it.. imagine yourself standing under shelter from the hot sun, and there was an occasional breeze, but I was soaked, real soaked.. my SSGT was like "wow how are you going to survive parades in no3?" I guess it's the material.. it doesn't allow for circulation, and water can't seep through, unless you kinda like force the water in.. it traps air really well so yeah..

And Patapon is really fun.. I'm like addicted to it alr (:

something really interesting to ponder.. you think the Mas Selamat incident has something else behind it? I don't know, I'm not saying anything more.. wah conspiracy theorist pls don't flood my blog!

I've realised that my life now revolves around 3 things.. it's kinda sad but good as well.. okay 2/3 are good it's just that 1 that isn't..

I'm finding myself hooked onto the PSP.. Justin's PSP.. 'cos I don't have one.. thank GOD I don't have one.. haha if not i won't be practising my clar at all.. Gosh.. I had to switch the PSP off today just to concentrate on my clar practice.. stupid thing to do: bring the PSP along for Individual Practice.. okay it's gotta stop..

Otherwise, the other 2 things my life revolves around is GOD and 妹ちゃん.. It's scary, but I think I've got an obsession for both.. I've been praying in tongues quite alot, and it's a really good thing 'cos it makes time past so fast while you're doing drills.. no kidding..

But God's really been taking great care of me.. showering me with so much favour and love.. favour with my superiors and commanders.. favour with my peers.. and so much love from everyone.. all the care, especially... I'm so looking forward to the 29th haha.. and yeah I really hope they give us off on 050508 'cos I've got lots of plans.. cooking and clarinetting.. oh well.. it's too much for me to handle.. hah a JESUS you take over ba..

---

Daddy.. heal 妹ちゃん stomach. in Jesus' name, AMEN!

Joel
Christian
30 April 89
clarinetist, plays in the SNYO.
Pianist. ex-violinist.
Magician. Dancer-wannabe.
Beloved of Daddy God. Righteous.

1.Soak in God's favour everyday
2.Love ^^ everyday
3.Practice the clarinet on most days
4.Attempt to play the piano on some days
5.play Wanderer fantasie one day

~NCC~
*`~[ARROW]~`*
*`~[DARE]~`*
*`~[JC South]~`*
*`~[A]lene~`*
*`~[A]lyn~`*
*`~[A]manda denise~`*
*`~[C]larice Sim~`*
*`~[E]LIZabeth~`*
*`~[I]mmanuel~`*
*`~[J]ack jack~`*
*`~[S]hirmaine~`*
*`~[V]ictoria~`*
*`~[Y]i xin~`*

~SAJC BAND~
*`~[Ms Ho]~`*
*`~[A]nsley~`*
*`~[B]ernadette~`*
*`~[D]orothy~`*
*`~[J]asmine~`*
*`~[M]andy~`*
*`~[M]ych~`*
*`~[N]icole~`*
*`~[P]amela~`*
*`~[P]oon Shi~`*
*`~[R]achelle~`*
*`~[S]hioks~`*
*`~[W]ei qin~`*
*`~[X]iaowei~`*

~SNYO~
*`~[C]hermaine~`*
*`~[D]aphne~`*
*`~[J]oanne~`*
*`~[J]oy~`*
*`~[S]hauna sin~`*
*`~[W]ei jie~`*

~others
*`~[ME blog]~`*
*`~[D]avid wong~`*
*`~[J]eremy chan~`*
*`~[J]oshua Siao~`*
*`~[M]able~`*
*`~[M]ary anne~`*
*`~[M]ei Lin~`*
*`~[Minyi~`*
*`~[R]achel tan~`*
*`~[R]uth ang~`*
*`~[S]andy chin~`*
*`~[S]haron~`*

[HISTORY]

& June 2006
& July 2006
& August 2006
& September 2006
& October 2006
& November 2006
& December 2006
& January 2007
& February 2007
& March 2007
& April 2007
& May 2007
& June 2007
& July 2007
& August 2007
& September 2007
& October 2007
& November 2007
& December 2007
& January 2008
& February 2008
& March 2008
& April 2008
& May 2008
& June 2008
& July 2008
& August 2008
& September 2008
& October 2008
& November 2008
& December 2008

[SHOUT OUTS]

Joel
Xaerenh
image source

[RAWRNESS]